Saturday, 16 February 2008

  • Dreams - Director, Actor and Audience

    I love dreaming. I really do. If someone asked me what I loved most about dreaming I would reply that I love the nature of them the most.

    Isn’t it fascinating that you’re the DIRECTOR, the ACTOR AND the AUDIENCE at the same time when you dream?


    The three work together in mysterious ways but yet they are distinctly different at the same time.


    Actually…reality and dreaming aren't so different.





    Let’s start from something we should all understand…the Audience.

    Have you ever woken up from a dream and thought “wow, what a show!” as you watched characters unfold and how the main character (often you) handled the situations. Have you watched love stories, have you watched tragedies, have you watched comedies, have you watched seemingly random things? How often have you woken up being glad all that you just watched was a dream or being sad it was only a dream?

    When I reflect back on my life…I am in audience mode. What’s happened is done and all I can do it enjoy the show. The show induces a flurry of emotions. Often I can be happy or joyful thinking back, often struck with sadness and regret, often overwhelmed with amazement and excitement, or often it hurts so much to watch we decide to look away.


    Being an audience to your own life teaches you things....it develops you as an Actor.

    In my dreams I'm placed into crazy crazy situations and then I actually make decisions. I search for the right words, I do an analysis of the situation, and I try to do the right thing. I see, I hear, I touch, I smell....I experience. Yet as the actor knows it's not truly reality, then he is brave to do things he is not normally willing to do. One decision leads to another scenario which leads to making another decision and so on. It's an adventure when you don't know what's around the corner and you're curious to find out what an action can lead to. There is interaction.

    Every moment in our life that we call the "present" we are in actor mode. We say our lines, we do our things and basically fulfill the role we have been casted as. We make the decisions of talking, of eating, of playing, or just saying and doing certain things according to the situation we anticipate will happen. Right after our actions tho...we are thrown back into audience mode as we watch how situations unfold before our eyes. The decisions we make are based on what we have learnt from our previous actions.


    As we act our lives out we say things, we do things, and we make decisions....we want to have control and be the Director.

    Think about the setting of your dreams, think of the people you see in them, think of the events that happen, think about the story...don't you find it crazy? The actor/audience side of you is often met with surprise as you enter into new scenarios, see people you don't expect to see, and live out stories that are worthy of being written into a movie! I think it's crazy that you can actually surprise yourself! That's what I call "keeping yourself entertained". We've aleady got the whole blueprint of the dream planned out in one part of our mind and it's being produced to us in real time as we watch/live it out.

    In real life the whole "director" thing is even more complicated to understand most of the time. Some people think they are the directors and as long as they work very very hard their life would be under control. Some people throughout the ages have always wanted to find out about the script for their own life and what is "destined". People flock to fortunetellers, palm readers, and believe in horoscopes only hoping to catch a glimpse of what that script looks like. People want to know if they would live out a happy life, if they would be rich, if they would have many kids, if they would marry young or old, if there are troubles ahead or if they will sail through life. Yet...are we actually the directors? Are those people just trying hard to steal the script from the director? Who is the director?


    The actor desperately wants to know what the director is thinking...


    ...I guess in real life that's what our gaping hole for religion is like.


    The director desperately wants to let the actor know what He is thinking...all the while creating a masterpiece for the audience so is careful not to let them know too much beforehand.



    For me I think one of the biggest joys in my life is learning that the REAL director is not myself but rather my God, Jesus Christ.

    I mean....c’mon. Do I really want to be in charge of controlling my life when I can't even control day and night? I can't even see a minute into the future so how can I direct things with unknown condition ahead?

    In my DREAMS I seem to have the control in directing as I create that world subconsciously but in a world created by God....who else can be the director right?




    Despite knowing this I'm not very good at respecting what the director tells me. He leads me into the weirdest situations just like how I lead myself into weird ones in my dreams always wondering what's next. Often I can't see beyond the situations so I question Him. I rebel against him. I disobey him as he takes me out of my comfort zone.


    There is a character I would "like" to play but there is a character he wants me to play instead.




    Silly me. I've gotta start listening to the director more. He's got an amazing masterpiece of a story waiting for me yet I'd rather write my own mediocre one.


    *edit* Explored another idea while talking with someone tonight. Actually...God doesn't tend to lead us step by step but he allows us to be creative along with the rough ideas he has planned up. His masterpieces aren't created by him alone but require input from his actors as well while he's teaching them different techniques along the way. He is not limited to only "church" or "denominations" either as his plans are SO SO much bigger. He chooses to use the church to bring his message across but his calling is on everyone. We often just refuse to be casted. */edit*

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    I am silly to rather do so much for so little when I only need to do very little for a lot.

    "..."Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."
    - Matthew 17:20 (NIV)


    (phew, Bosco is quickly back again whether you want him to or not :) Thanks for those who worried/prayed)


    (c) Bosco Tung 2008



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